A heavy heart

I woke up this morning with a heart so heavy that I immediately prayed instead of doing it my usual time. Breonna Taylor’s death and the conclusion of it is such a hard blow to not only her family and loved ones but to most of the world. I’m so beyond disappointed in the system but that’s not new,I think at this point I’m utterly disgusted with it and with those who think that it’s equal and just.

Breonna Taylor and her boyfriend were sleeping in bed when police officers decided to shoot first and ask questions later. Thinking that it was intruders the boyfriend decides to shoot (Kentucky is an open carry state as well as a state that believes in stand your ground) and in the midst of all of Breonna Taylor lost her life. The AG is saying that the police didn’t enforce a No Knock Warrant but I don’t believe that at all. The AG is saying that Breonna’s boyfriend had a previous run-in with one of the officers but I can’t remember if guns were part of that scenario or not. It seems to me that if this officer had past issues with the boyfriend than he shouldn’t have been a part of this particular case. It also seems ironic that no matter the situation somehow someone comes forward with a story to collaborate with the officers rather it be a gun found,drugs,etc. It’s repetitive and at this point expected.

This piece of jackass decided to not only drag his feet on this case but he also didn’t have the balls to handle it as he should. One thing I can’t stand is a man without a backbone but even more so, a black man without one. In case y’all didn’t know by now,I’m 💯% pro-black but that doesn’t mean that I’m anti-white. What it mean for me is that I love being black and I will always support my black community. I said that because of what I’m about to say now…this AG is married to a white woman,and that’s fine because love is love,but a lot of people including myself, always wonder if that makes a person bias when it comes to racism. After just writing that,I also realize a lot of people of the minority community either were raised or eventually decided that embracing the majority culture at the expense of their own was a better way to be. I understand that we all have to adopt to our environment, including myself but I have never done it at the expense of my blackness or my black community. AG Daniel Cameron is a whole jackass who has the nerve to tell black people that as a black man he understands how we feel! For someone who understands it he darn sure didn’t handle it like one who gets it does. I’ve said it several times but I’ll say it again,Black women are the least protected beings on this earth and Breonna Taylor’s case definitely proves that. The biggest threat to a black woman is a black man with no backbone and a black man who wishes he was white.

A lot has come out about this case from the way the police handled it to them attempting to have Breonna’s ex boyfriend sign a deal saying she knew about his drug deals to the DA being married to Mitch McConnell’s granddaughter (ironically Mitch is a mentor to AG Daniel Cameron) so how anyone could believe that how this case ended was justified is beyond my decent,non racist being, human thought process. The fact that anyone can justify all of these killings of black people is also beyond my comprehension. If people would stand for us with the same energy they use to culturally appropriate use than we would have more of a equal playing field.

The whole system is jacked up, from the Donald Trump on down. I’m fact he’s a blantant racist. He makes sure to protect the cops no matter the situation. He also makes sure to add the narrative about “white people too”. I’ve yet to hear him condemn police brutality,the KKK,acts of racism,or anything else. At this point if you still believe in him than you’re a racist and only God can tell me otherwise.

Breonna Taylor’s death didn’t go over well so why would the conclusion be received with warmth? The people to blame for this travesty are AG Cameron,the officers,the DA,and Donald Trump. My heart and prayers go out to all of those who have been touched by her life including those whose life she helped to save. She didn’t deserve to die and she most certainly didn’t deserve to not get the justice she rightly owed to her.

The Black Woman

This Meg the Stallion situation with Tory Lanez has had me in my black woman feelings. We are at the forefront of every movement when it comes to black men but when it’s our turn to get that same energy,we are continuously let down.

When will she speak: Whenever someone asks that question I automatically know just how ignorant they are going to be. A victim is the person who actually received the trauma which means they are the ones who have to process the pain and that also means they should only speak when they’re ready to do so. It’s absolutely ridiculous that we want to rush the victim to speak,not caring that speaking before they’re ready could cause further trauma. We are absolutely selfish and I’m becoming more and more aware of it everyday. We selfishly want the victim to speak just to be able to get all the juicy details and to be able to call her a liar and poke holes in her story. I want you to take note that when black women rally behind black men,we don’t ask for them to hurry up and tell their story instead we offer comfort and love, patience and understanding,and healing and soft spoken words.

She’s lying. Something isn’t adding up: I can’t tell you how annoying those lines are even more so when they come from other black women. Meg came out and said she didn’t say anything because she wanted to protect this manchild. Is that really a foreign concept? How many of us have done the same thing? We have protected our man or our male relatives in some sort of way knowing they should have been in jail so it’s crazy to me that you forget that just because it’s not your story. Which part is she lying about? The part where he shot her? Cause if that’s the case,I need a reliable source that says he didn’t. What’s not adding up? I’ve seen comments saying her story keeps changing (I haven’t seen that) but if you took the time to look into trauma as you do into knocking Meg and any other victim,than you’d know how trauma affects the brain. Just in case you’re interested and you believe knowledge is power than here’s a link to help you understand: https://youtu.be/4-tcKYx24aA. I want to point out again that when we rally behind our black men we don’t call them liars nor do we question their stories. In fact we go over and beyond,often times to our own sanity,to prove that they are victims and should receive justice. Mind you,we rushed them to tell what happened only to turn around and question them.

She shouldn’t have…….: For me this one is probably the most aggravating one. It’s because we have this habit of telling black women what they should and shouldn’t do instead of addressing the men who prey on and victimize us. It’s the whole “boy’s will be boys” but black women need to be modest in order to prevent themselves from becoming a victim. Nevermind that a sicko is a sicko no matter where we’re at or what we wear. What shouldn’t she have done? Not be at a party? Not be in a relationship with Lanez? It’s amazing to me that men are allowed to make these mistakes and are patted on the back for realizing their error but women are criticized beyond comparison. We can’t even show our anger or express our frustrations without being called bitter black women or made to feel that our natural feelings are the reason that black men run to white women. When we rally behind our black men we don’t say that they should have listened to the cop or that they shouldn’t have been at a place or been around particular people. Black women make it known that it doesn’t matter where they were at or who they were with because it didn’t mean they were guilty or even deserved what they got.

When our black men are attacked, stressed,put in life and death situations black women have proven throughout history that we hold them down. We form protests,we make plates,we babysit,we start petitions and go fund me accounts to show love for our black men. We loudly scream,”No Justice No Peace” as we march beside our men. We go to jail with our fists raised high in the air proudly because we did what was needed for our black men. For hundreds of years we have protected our black men even to our death and for hundreds of years black men and their pick me’s have willingly thrown us to the wolves. This rerun is a show that we,as black women,are tired of and so I say this will all the black woman power within me and those women like me:GO EFF YOURSELVES.